you made it out alive, oh what a relief

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asgndlks I just realized how :[[[ I would be if I didn't get to spend New Year's with Zach D: WHEN DID I BECOME THIS PERSON OMG, EVERYONE TELL ME TO STOP BEING SO CUDDLY AND ANNOYING IN THE HALLS. although at least we don't suck face or something in public. but um if the beach house thing works out (PLEASE GOD) then I'm pretty sure I can get out of going to Seattle by being all "but mom my first (serious) boyfriend :((("

I'M DOING HOMEWORK I SWEAR

also will put up a beach trip post sometime this week. hopefully tomorrow, but we'll see whether or not Claire goes to rugby (which I don't think she will be, given that I think she's dropping it....). if not then, on Wednesday or Thursday, if Claire actually goes to her volunteering job :| idk how she thinks she'll get hired if she doesn't ever actually, you know, work.

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LOL IRONICALLY I AM JEALOUS BECAUSE MY GIRLFRIEND LIVES IN SEATTLE

and when i was like yesss i will ask this person on a date, it won't even be really like a long distance relationship because it is only three hours and my last long distance relationship was a chick in new york!!

turns out seattle is, still, kind of annoying far away. FUCK.

wow tl;dr about my life ANYWAY GOOD LUCKKKK BB

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jshfjds you have a girlfriend? :))))) congratulations~ and I hope it all works out!

also because I am nosy: are you gay/bi/pansexual/queer/experimenting/other? you don't have to answer lol but I am super curious about these things.

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ROFL THAT'S OKAY way to be, haley, for not replying forever and making shit awkward turtles

THAT'S A GREAT QUESTION. For a long time I considered myself bisexual, though I lean more heavily toward women. Even when I've been sexually attracted to men, it's usually men who are unattainable for some reason or another that I can freely fantasize about/romance about/etc without actually being with that person. I've had about (I was just thinking about this recently is why it's on my mind lol) 4 opportunities in my life to sleep with a man, and for some reason or another I was always too uncomfortable/too out of my element/too scared to go through with it -- I guess I just get sexually uncomfortable around men if they're legitimately interested in me. To the point where, knowing that some certain guys were attracted to me that way actually made me ill or uncomfortable (and IDK why, you know, because I've never been abused or anything? which is what I would generally associate that sort of discomfort with).

So I guess while yes, I'm attracted to men and women alike (regardless of gender identity here as well), for me it's more about personality/companionship/love than it is about sex. And I find that I'm more interested in sex with a person in relation to the more I am interested in pleasing that person, which goes hand in hand with how much I care about them. I would say that I'm pansexual if it really came down to it, and that's just because of what I just said (lol i am confusing myself here) in that it's the person who matters to me first, then their companionship, then their love, then their gender and physical sex. But I still have to be somewhat attracted to them... if I'm making any sense anymore omg.

LOL SO YEAHHHH.